The Rantings of a Tortured Mind

Valerie Rayne Rants


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Lots About Kaeidyn…


Parent/Teacher Conferences Tonight… I just know I’m going to hear something about all the school Keirnan has missed. We need to figure out what’s causing us all to be so sick so often, that way we can get Keirnan to school more often! Luckily, this cold isn’t being nearly as brutal as all the others. I think I’m on Day 5 now and except for a small scratch in my throat, I feel pretty okay. Unfortunately, and yes I’m blaming the cold, one of my teeth is now acting up and my mouth is killing me.

We need to all get in and see a dentist but right now it’s just not in the budget. So, I’m trying to apply for some assistance on that level but my Adobe Reader isn’t working for some reason, even though I just downloaded the newest version. I will try again later on today. I have a feeling that I’m going to get my teeth looked at and they’re going to say that all of them need to come out. That scares the crap out of me!

Really, what I’m noticing, is that we need to figure out a way to force ourselves to get healthier in general. I really need to get vitamins for the kids, we all need to start drinking milk (I can’t even remember the last time I had milk…) and we just need to start taking in more nutrients – because I think that’s part of the problem. Our bodies can’t function properly because they don’t have the power they need…

The Boyfriend took his cast off yesterday, so he finally has use of both his hands. Instead of going to the doctors, he spent a few hours with a pair of scissors or something and just cut the thing off himself. Don’t ask me why he didn’t just go to the doctors, I was half asleep for most of the day yesterday, fighting this hurting tooth pretty hard.

Got the kids report cards yesterday. They had actually come out awhile back, but the kids hadn’t been at school for the week because of their colds, so just got them yesterday. Both Kaeidyn and Kenzie are either doing excellent in every area or are meeting expectations. The only area that they both got “Needs developing” for was in self-assessment, which doesn’t surprise me – don’t we all! Kaeidyn’s the only one that’s getting actual grades, and right now is sitting at about a C average. This seems to be pretty typical of her. We can definitely tell she’s struggling more this year than last.

I think all the kids are and I blame it mostly on the fact that this school is teaching them completely differently than the last school. I mean, at Normandeau the big focus was on phonics. Learning to read and write by sounding it out. With Kaeidyn, this worked wonders. It was incredibly easy to help her with reading and writing. With Kenzie, they are doing sight-reading only, no phonics at all. It’s making it very hard to know how to support him in reading when I was taught and we taught Kaeidyn how to sound it out and with Kenzie, we can’t even go there. He’s not learning that.

Kaeidyn is even having an issue in math because they do the math so differently than she was taught. And don’t even get me started on how much I don’t understand her math, because they definitely never taught us how to do math like that when I was going to school. I often stare at her math homework, then give up and tell her to go ask The Boyfriend for help. Somehow, he tends to figure it all out. Really, he’s so good with them and their homework, helping them out with it. He’s so patient when helping Kenzie to read and him and Kaeidyn laugh a lot when they’re trying to do math and it’s always such a cute moment to watch. Not so much when I’m helping them with their homework. I get flustered and frustrated…

Yesterday, he’s helping Kaeidyn with a math question. It was a word question where she had to ultimately add 3 numbers to find out how many things total, were in a box of ornaments. She kept getting it wrong and couldn’t figure out where she was going wrong. Her and The Boyfriend are working on it when Kenzie starts bugging Kaeidyn that it should be easy. So she says, “Oh yeah, what’s 35 + 27 + 12?”. Kenzie pauses for a second and then responds, “Hard!”. My thoughts exactly 😉

We’re also having incredible issues with Kaeidyn about the break-in. She has only slept a few nights upstairs, otherwise she’s been down here sleeping with us. Last night, after really giving it a go upstairs, she came down frantically crying. I asked what she was so worried about and she starts going off about how she’s scared soldiers are going to break down our door and lock the kids in the basement, that they’re going to kill us all. Apparently it’s even been coming up at school a lot and she just seems overly stressed out and worried about it. We’re doing the best we know how to comfort and support her, but sometimes you just feel like you’re not doing enough. We just have to give her time.

So, that’s been these last few days. Lots more than I had originally thought I was going to write, so that’s good. Now to make it through these parent/teacher conferences!


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5 Hours Down…


Almost five hours later, and my living room looks no cleaner, although it is! We have cleaned the bookshelf, the movie shelf and almost all of the walls, from the smoky beige back to something resembling white. We have gotten rid of all the empty movie cases, put all the random change into a container, re-organized The Boyfriend’s Nascar cars and video game consoles again and completely cleared off the bookshelf and reconfigured the whole thing. It’s getting there, very slowly, but at least it’s getting there!

We still have to clean underneath the chair and in behind the computer desk and I’ve still got to vacuum the floor and unfortunately we didn’t get any laundry done – washed, folded or put away – but there’s still a few hours to go, so maybe we’ll get something done. Plus, I don’t work tomorrow, so if I get any energy at all tomorrow, I’ll have tons to do – and tons for the kids to do.

It was a really good weekend though. My Mom took all the older kids for a couple nights and that was seriously beautiful. I got to catch up on a lot of sleep, The Boyfriend and I got some cuddle time in and I got some stuff done. All in all, it was probably one of my favorite weekends yet. And the best part is, it’s not over yet!

Things have been really good for the most part for the last week or so. I got a bunch of money that I was expecting and it couldn’t have come at a better time. So now we have our phone and internet back, our hot water finally got turned back on (it’s been months without it!), and we were able to get new pots and pans (which I love!) and tomorrow I get to do a stress-free grocery shop, which I also love! Things are slowly coming together and it’s been such a big relief.

The kids are both doing awesome in school. Kaeidyn gets to go to letter grades this year, so I’m excited about that. Her teacher apparently used to partner teach with my old Grade 2 teacher from her school. It was kind of weird. But first parent-teacher conference with her was really great. Kenzie’s teacher is really impressed with him (she was also Kaeidyn’s kindergarten teacher – I like her better now that she’s Kenzie teacher) and thinks that he’s going to accomplish great things in kindergarten and I couldn’t be happier.

At the end of the parent-teacher conference, Kenzie’s teacher asked about the boys and I mentioned Keirnan’s speech issues and she thought it was the perfect time to tell me about their pre-k class at the school. I’ve known about this program for some time and just didn’t think I had time to get Keirnan into it. But then she said that they were still taking students. So now, I’ve gotta take Keirnan down to get a speech assessment. No idea how long that’s going to take or anything like that, but I figure while I’m doing that, I can get anyone who still needs their immunizations (Carter and maybe Keirnan… Not sure…) done.

Work is still the same. Some days it’s better than others, but I’ve definitely decided eventually I’ve gotta start looking for another job. At least I’m getting along really well with our new reception and that makes it easier to go to work every day. I’ve been leaving work early a lot, which isn’t great for pay checks, but I hate just sitting around wasting their money. It’s different when you’re working a slow day at McDonald’s and have nothing to do. At least there’s a chance you could get slammed. My job, not so much!

Well, time to go wrap up leftovers (I know, you’re totally shocked!). What’s been going on in your life these past few weeks?