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Lots About Kaeidyn…


Parent/Teacher Conferences Tonight… I just know I’m going to hear something about all the school Keirnan has missed. We need to figure out what’s causing us all to be so sick so often, that way we can get Keirnan to school more often! Luckily, this cold isn’t being nearly as brutal as all the others. I think I’m on Day 5 now and except for a small scratch in my throat, I feel pretty okay. Unfortunately, and yes I’m blaming the cold, one of my teeth is now acting up and my mouth is killing me.

We need to all get in and see a dentist but right now it’s just not in the budget. So, I’m trying to apply for some assistance on that level but my Adobe Reader isn’t working for some reason, even though I just downloaded the newest version. I will try again later on today. I have a feeling that I’m going to get my teeth looked at and they’re going to say that all of them need to come out. That scares the crap out of me!

Really, what I’m noticing, is that we need to figure out a way to force ourselves to get healthier in general. I really need to get vitamins for the kids, we all need to start drinking milk (I can’t even remember the last time I had milk…) and we just need to start taking in more nutrients – because I think that’s part of the problem. Our bodies can’t function properly because they don’t have the power they need…

The Boyfriend took his cast off yesterday, so he finally has use of both his hands. Instead of going to the doctors, he spent a few hours with a pair of scissors or something and just cut the thing off himself. Don’t ask me why he didn’t just go to the doctors, I was half asleep for most of the day yesterday, fighting this hurting tooth pretty hard.

Got the kids report cards yesterday. They had actually come out awhile back, but the kids hadn’t been at school for the week because of their colds, so just got them yesterday. Both Kaeidyn and Kenzie are either doing excellent in every area or are meeting expectations. The only area that they both got “Needs developing” for was in self-assessment, which doesn’t surprise me – don’t we all! Kaeidyn’s the only one that’s getting actual grades, and right now is sitting at about a C average. This seems to be pretty typical of her. We can definitely tell she’s struggling more this year than last.

I think all the kids are and I blame it mostly on the fact that this school is teaching them completely differently than the last school. I mean, at Normandeau the big focus was on phonics. Learning to read and write by sounding it out. With Kaeidyn, this worked wonders. It was incredibly easy to help her with reading and writing. With Kenzie, they are doing sight-reading only, no phonics at all. It’s making it very hard to know how to support him in reading when I was taught and we taught Kaeidyn how to sound it out and with Kenzie, we can’t even go there. He’s not learning that.

Kaeidyn is even having an issue in math because they do the math so differently than she was taught. And don’t even get me started on how much I don’t understand her math, because they definitely never taught us how to do math like that when I was going to school. I often stare at her math homework, then give up and tell her to go ask The Boyfriend for help. Somehow, he tends to figure it all out. Really, he’s so good with them and their homework, helping them out with it. He’s so patient when helping Kenzie to read and him and Kaeidyn laugh a lot when they’re trying to do math and it’s always such a cute moment to watch. Not so much when I’m helping them with their homework. I get flustered and frustrated…

Yesterday, he’s helping Kaeidyn with a math question. It was a word question where she had to ultimately add 3 numbers to find out how many things total, were in a box of ornaments. She kept getting it wrong and couldn’t figure out where she was going wrong. Her and The Boyfriend are working on it when Kenzie starts bugging Kaeidyn that it should be easy. So she says, “Oh yeah, what’s 35 + 27 + 12?”. Kenzie pauses for a second and then responds, “Hard!”. My thoughts exactly 😉

We’re also having incredible issues with Kaeidyn about the break-in. She has only slept a few nights upstairs, otherwise she’s been down here sleeping with us. Last night, after really giving it a go upstairs, she came down frantically crying. I asked what she was so worried about and she starts going off about how she’s scared soldiers are going to break down our door and lock the kids in the basement, that they’re going to kill us all. Apparently it’s even been coming up at school a lot and she just seems overly stressed out and worried about it. We’re doing the best we know how to comfort and support her, but sometimes you just feel like you’re not doing enough. We just have to give her time.

So, that’s been these last few days. Lots more than I had originally thought I was going to write, so that’s good. Now to make it through these parent/teacher conferences!

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So Good We Napped


You know what sucks about running a blog for this long? There is a lot of stuff on it that’s sometimes hard to figure out how you want it to be organized and how you want it to look. Ah well… stuff happens!

The Boyfriend and I finally had sex last night. I had been really wanting it before we had our break-in. Actually, the night of the break-in, just before it happened, I was on top of The Boyfriend facing the TV and letting him rub me through my pants in the attempts of getting sex. Then of course, in the days following the break-in, we were both too nervous to actually have sex.

Finally, somehow our fears were put to rest and I got to orgasm a total of 3 times yesterday and we technically had sex twice!! Both times were absolutely beyond incredible and it marked a new one for both of us – having sex with a cast on. Surprisingly, it didn’t interrupt things as much as we were expecting, though a few times we both noticed it. He felt it more when he was on top and I felt it more when I was on top… Figure that one out 😉

After the kids had all fallen asleep last night, he snuggled up close behind me. I was wearing a very short skirt and he was easily able to caress my legs. I was shocked when he lifted the blanket, disappeared under it and began to lick my pussy from behind. He forcefully grabbed my ass and pushed my lips up to meet his. He really enjoyed eating me out in this position, I would even say more than any other position. At first, I felt awkward and uncomfortable, but then it just felt too good to care and soon I was cumming hard, which he happily cleaned up.

He swiftly penetrated me while I was still laying on my side and slowly we migrated to me laying on my back and him on top. I wrapped  my legs around him and not too sure how I did whatever I did next, but whatever it was it was amazing. Clenching the walls of my vagina around him until it felt like I had completely and literally encompassed him and then using my stomach muscles to pull myself off of him. All I know is that, from within my vagina, it felt incredible. It proved to feel incredible for him too, when he whispered to me, “You keep that up, I’m going to cum”. Needless to say, I didn’t stop… After he had cum, I stayed grinding on him until I came hard.

After we had a short nap (yes, we had a mini-nap the sex was so good!), we woke up and had something to eat before turning on the porn and doing it all over again. We had already agreed that I would be on top this time, so once the porn had been going for quite some time, I knelt down and laid hard kisses on his shaft. I only gave a few soft sucks before climbing on top of him and slowly letting him into my wetness. I wriggled this way and that until he was as deep as I could get him and we sat like that for a moment, just kissing and caressing one another.

I moved forward and slowly lifted my hips until he was almost completely out of me and then quickly slammed my hips down onto him. He bucked his hips beneath me and put his cast on my ass, the weight of it was most noticeable and actually kind of hot. I rocked back and forth on him and again he whispered, “You keep doing that and I’m going to cum”, so I kept “doing that” until he did cum. As he came, I quickly leaned back and began playing with my clit. I could feel his balls pulsing against my ass and as his cock began to go limp, my vagina felt incredibly full. It was only seconds before I was collapsing in an orgasm on top of him.

We turned off the porn, cuddled up close to one another and he was quickly fast asleep. I was awake for a little while longer, though that’s becoming a rather common occurrence. I woke up this morning and all I’ve been able to think about is oral sex…!