I’ve been hard at work online these last couple of days and I’ve felt inspired and creative and today, I just feel boggled down and overwhelmed. I’m sitting here, as I have been for the last hour and a half, continually starting things, getting halfway into it and then giving up. Then, spending the next few minutes beating myself up for giving up and then jumping in to something else to half start it…
I decided, kind of last minute like (which shows you the problem in the first place), to start a new and in my opinion, very cool new group on Lifestyle Bloggers Anonymous. I’ve done this before, in the form of NaBloPoMo, but didn’t feel like trying that again – so I started The Blog Everyday Challenge. Starting January 1, 2013, it is my mission to blog everyday for as long as I can. Ideally, I’d like to do it for an entire year!
So, of course, right then and there, I should’ve known I bit off more than I could chew, but… I guess, I never learn. So, a Facebook page was created for this group and a Google+ community and then… and then… I jumped over to my Zazzle shop and decided to start creating products for my store (which hasn’t undergone the big re-design that I have been planning forever and a day – which is why you’ve barely heard about it…), which resulted in the insanity that is about to ensue…
First, I decided I needed to create a new Tumblr account, because I was having such a hard time with the whole concept of having the two blogs under the same account. I was constantly posting stuff not intended for one on the other. But then I realized, I needed a new email address. I had stopped using so many of my old ones, to the point where I couldn’t even get into it anymore, so I’ve just been using the one. Mixing the personal life emails with the Lifestyle Bloggers Anonymous emails (mostly ones coming from stuff I’m doing and not anybody in the outside world…) and now the Blog-A-Holic Designs emails was becoming too much, so a new email was made.
It’s just been a slew of getting tons accomplished and getting absolutely nothing accomplished. Let’s take a look at what I’ve done in the last few days:
- Created a new group on Lifestyle Bloggers Anonymous – The Blog Everyday Challenge
- Writing a mini FAQ
- Designing a couple logos
- Creating an event on the site
- Created a Facebook Fan Page and Google+ Community for The Blog Everyday Challenge
- Tweeting from two different accounts about The Blog Everyday Challenge and some of the products I had created on Blog-A-Holic Designs using the #BlogEveryday hashtag
- Created a new account on Pinterest for all my Zazzle-related favorite things (and also to promote Blog-A-Holic Designs a little bit)
- Added about 9 products on one day and about 14 or so the next day to Blog-A-Holic Designs. More to come soon…
- Updated the Blog-A-Holic Designs Facebook Fan Page
- Wrote the first and second post on the Blog-A-Holic Designs Blog
- Queued up more posts for the Lifestyle Bloggers Anonymous Tumblr blog, including posts to promote The Blog Everyday Challenge and The Erotic Writers Group
- Drafted a post for Updates from the Head Blog-A-Holic about The Blog Everyday Challenge
- Created events on Facebook and Google+, for my first time ever, for The Blog Everyday Challenge
- Linked all my Google accounts (can you believe I have 3 now…?!?)
And doing all this stuff (which I’m sure I missed a few things, I just can’t think of them right now), has just made my to-do list even longer and even harder to accomplish. Thinking about all the things I still have left to do and all the plans that I still have in the works and I just feel like sitting back, kicking up my feet and saying, “Phew!”. Like, I just want to catch my breath for a second.
On one hand, I love this total and absolute addiction to this kind of stuff. I love this whole creating thing and I love when I get hit with these really inspired and motivated bursts online. When it seems like it’s all coming easily and it’s flowing from me with ease. But I also hate it, because I feel like I’m just setting myself up for failure.
Which I’ve been feeling like a lot lately. Like every single move I make is a move towards absolute and epic failure and I feel it weighing heavily on me. I’m sick of not completing things, of starting things without ever finishing them, of giving up entirely. I’m sick of being that person.
So tonight, I’m sitting here trying to get started on something I hope to finish and I feel like I’m stumped and hitting a brick wall. I feel frustrated and overwhelmed and just generally harumphed…