I can’t believe it’s still a month until we move. I’m so ready for it now. I’m ready to move immediately, like yesterday! I feel like this house that we’re moving into is going to resent us so much because we’ve put so much pressure on it to be the big starting over point in our lives. It’s unfair to the new place, but we can’t help it.
The kids are most excited about the concept of 4 bedrooms and are constantly arguing over who gets to share a room with who. But The Boyfriend and I just keep thinking about how much things can and will change for us once we’re out of the Glendale house, how much better our lives can be. I, of course, have been having all sorts of mixed emotions and thoughts regarding this move, that it’s often really hard for me to figure out exactly what I’m feeling about it.
I keep getting too excited about it and I feel like I shouldn’t be doing that. I shouldn’t be expecting that this house is going to change anything, because the changes need to come from us, not just the house. And of course, once I start realizing that I’m putting so much pressure on the house, I’m no longer excited about it. Instead, I’m daunted.
We went and looked at the outside of the house last week. We won’t get to see the inside until closer to the middle of July, which kind of sucks, but I figure it’s better that way. We have a fenced backyard coming our way though, and that makes me SO incredibly happy. I won’t be having to search the entire block for the kids. Albeit, I know Kaeidyn for sure will try to escape the yard and I’m sure the rest will follow along with her. But, we’ll worry about that when it comes up.
I’m also mostly excited about the almost $300 we’ll be saving every month in rent. You have no idea how hyped that detail has me. I just keep thinking, “That’s $300 that can instead go to…”, and the list literally drags on for pages! We can start saving money, we can finally get me a guitar, we can look into getting me a laptop again, I can actually spend money on clothes, we can even consider getting cable eventually again. The list goes on forever of all the things we can now have money for, which is a huge relief. To think that we might actually get to do more than struggle to survive is such a huge weight off the shoulders.
Every time I think about these things though, I automatically shut my happy thoughts down and think that I shouldn’t be thinking them. First of all, I hardly know anything about this house. All I do know is that it’s a 4 bedroom and our rent will be less than it is right now. I have no idea what, if any, utilities we’ll have to pay. I don’t know if there’s a washer and dryer, which if there’s not could take up the whole $300 we’re saving in rent. And I won’t know most of that stuff until closer to the middle of July and I just have to patient – and that drives me nutty…
We need to seriously buckle down over the next few weeks and really start going through all our stuff, getting rid of what we’ll never use and packing up the rest. We also need to find out about selling the van and then emptying that. Don’t ask how, but over the years of it sitting out there never being driven, it has managed to accumulate a ton of crap. All of it’s going in the garbage, no matter how much The Boyfriend begs me to keep something (and trust me, he’ll try…). We also need to figure out how we’ll moving all this stuff over there.
The Boyfriend is pretty sure that he’ll be going to Calgary the week of our move. He’s being sent off for leadership training for work, which he really wants to go to. We don’t know exactly when that will be yet, again something we will find out closer to the middle of July. Why does everything have to wait until July?!? And while we don’t have very much in the way of furniture or stuff to take along with us, we will need a pickup truck to make this move work. Which will be fine if Chef’s in town, but if he’s not, it’ll be a little bit trickier.
And once we see the place, we’re going to need to figure out what all we need. I’ve got a mini list going right now that includes things like a garbage can for the bathroom and beds/mattresses for everyone. It’ll probably take us awhile to get everything that we need, but we’re okay with that. Regardless, we still need a list so that it’s not like it was when I moved in here.
So that’s what I’m thinking about today. I’m making plans way before I need to, I’m dreaming about my “new” life and I’m impatiently awaiting the middle of July!